Wooosah!!!!

Stress, stress, stress, and more stress!!!! My mind has been on a constant struggle with peace, and direction. For starters, my job has been giving me the run around for about a month. Background checks are my flippin' downfall!!! Second, because of this run around I have no income which means I can't save money for MY SON! Yes! I will be a FATHER this upcoming summer. This past 5 months of thinking of my life changing decision has been BRUTAL! It has taking away my passion for music, fun, and even MYSELF. It has made me spend time away from my close "brothers" & "sisters" to just reflect. I don't club anymore. I don't just come around to hang out every other day. I don't revolve my life around trying to be where it's "Poppin"! Instead i've been trying to become a MAN! Investing my chump change into a better future. Gas tank to go to interviews, and taking my BEAUTIFUL girlfriend to work. In this process, I may come off as if I'm depressed, or down. I'm actual more positive about things than I have EVER been. I've literally forced myself into a new mindframe, because the guy I was before was lazy, selfish, and unappreciative. NO MORE! Moral of the story is I'm on my way. As the saying goes "Things get harder before they get better!". So with that said I'll continue to push until "Better" falls upon my lap. My son deserves it!


Love you ALL!
When's the last time you were positive?